Evolve- to deveop gradually from a simple, to a more complex form
I have a friend that is always telling me I do too much. I don’t take on responsibilities because I am like “Ehh, I am bored, let’s do something else.” In fact, I am never bored. I work from home so I am always working. There is enough work to do to last me an eternity. I also decided to take on an enormous work project (which is going to be epic by the way, just wait and see) to you know, cure that boredom.
The things I do daily-homeschool my kids, manage a business, manage my side job as a taxi driver, cook, housewife, hairdresser, personal shopper, psychologist, ring leader, teacher, boss etc, I just do because there are things that need to be done, and I figure out how to do them. I truley believe it is all about the additude you have about life-and with a good one, you can accomplish anything.
But this year, so far I have taken a step back to look at my life work. When it comes down to it, my biggest project, my largest accomplishment, my greatest joy will come from homeschooling and raising my children. The beginning of this year I was doing everything “right”. Tons of activities, running around like mad-men, enjoying all of the beautiful opportunities that our community has to offer. Today, February 7th, I have quit half of them. Probably more than half. I just stopped. They were sucking our joy from our life, and I wasn’t doing a good enough job of making sure things got done (the school part of homeSCHOOLING) and I was over it.
So now, I signed my kids up for an all online program. I have ZERO control. For a control freak, even writing those makes me cringe a little bit. NO CONTROL. My kids login, and learn the material that someone else presents for them, and then they answer questions and I assess thier progress. This week has been GLORIOUS. My kids love it, I get work done, they get work done. Why didn’t I think of this sooner?
The same friend that is always on me about doing too much told me she was proud. Evolution isn’t just something that takes place over millions of years, and it’s not always monumental. My heart has evolved over these past few months, into a bigger, more complex place-that’s simpler at the same time. Our homeschool has evolved, into a place where we are happy again and have one priority in mind-HAPPINESS. Less responsibility, and good friends to do life with-that’s winning.