So many moments

The past week has changed me.

You only have so many moments in life, and you never know when the last time will be. You hear it all the time about your kids. One day you’ll hold his hand, and he next day he won’t need you to. The next day you’ll get them dressed and them tomorrow they’ll be too big. It’s glorious and beautiful, and sad all at the same time.

But when it’s with an aging parent, it’s different. My mom is 59. I’ve been a “caretaker” for her for at least the past 12 years. She’s blessed us enormously.

Last Monday she fell. She didn’t tell anyone, and Tuesday night she let me know she was in pain. By Thursday she was vomiting, drooling, lethargic and we were in the ER. They ruled out the big things-internal bleeding, infection. The weekend we waited, for things to get betters

Today, they aren’t. We followed DR orders and called her Nuero doc, who sent us to an ER that specializes in Nuero issues. She’s sleeping now, and the quiet hum of her blood pressure machine both calms me and worries me at the same time. She sleeps. She hasn’t slept in a week. Why is home so hard to sleep in? Would a place like this (assisted living) be better? How can I make the rest of her life sublime, perfect, everything she’s ever dreamed of?

With this injury she’s lost her will to do anything. She doesn’t want to go anywhere, engage socially. She just doesn’t feel good. What if the last time I told her to quit working so hard was the last. What if she never gives me a snarky comment when I ask her a medical question?

This all happened so fast, and so quick. I’m hoping it’s temporary. I’ll cherish every moment with her. My heart has changed and I know how much she means in our life. Until next time, I’ll just hold my breathe and wait.

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Spaghetti Day!

This was definitely a day that will go down in the History books for the BEST DAY EVER! Declan has shown so much excitement for these events and it is such a FUN way to teach the calendar to early elementary school kids.

Today we had our own version of an Elf breakfast. If you are one of the lone rangers on this planet that has not seen the best (Christmas) movie on earth, I suggest you get to it. Anyways. We  had a breakfast full of spaghetti, swedish fish, crushed peppermints, Now & Laters and syrup.  Since Declan usually lives off of carbs and sugar, I believe that he is actually an elf. No judgement, he is growing and and thriving and you only live once right? Um, yeah.  Rylee tried some, and enjoyed it but didn’t eat a full bowl like Declan did. Noah is smart enough to know better.

For dinner, we had my favorite lazy meal.  Spaghetti, Raw Spinach, Garbanzo beans, chopped pepperoni, fresh herbs, olive oil, salt and pepper. ( Leave out pepperoni for a great meatless Monday meal).  I didn’t get a photo, but I will have to next time. It’s quick , easy and everyone seems to like it.

Disclaimer: Noah called this carb loading and that’s okay. Declan never stops moving. Also, he brushed his teeth.  This was important. SUGAR overload.  It is worth the day of sugar and carbs for all of the excitement and all of the memories.

Follow along with us for your next adventure when we post about Bird and cuddle day!

Celebrating all of the Holidays

A dear friend of mine, a fellow homeschooling mom and the one who gets all of the things done decided to celebrate all of the Holidays–not just the big ones, but the little ones too.  Like Bubble Wrap day! She was kind enough to share it  will add photos as we celebrate so you can follow along as we celebrate all the holidays. January 1st was a wash because we were all sick and yesterday there wasn’t a great holiday to celebrate so we will start tomorrow!

January 3-Sleep Day

January 4- Spaghetti Day

January 5-Bird Day

January 6- Cuddle Day

January 7-Pioneers Day (Liberia)

January 8-Bubble Bath Day

January 9- Peace Agreement Day (South Sudan)

January 10-Dark Chocolate Day

January 11- Puddle Splash Day

January 12-Pharmacist Day

January 13- Constitution Da (Mongolia)

January 14- Pet Dress Up Day

January 15- MLK DAy

January 16- Dragon Day

January 17- ?

January 18- Winnie The Pooh DAy

January 19- Popcorn Day

January 20-Cheese Day

January 21-Squirrel Appreciation Day

January 22- Blondie Day

January 23- Measure your feet Day

January 24- Compliment Day

January 25- Opposite Day

January 26-Spouse Day

January 27-Chocolate Cake Day

January 28-Kazoo DAy

January 29- Bubble Wrap Day

January 30-The Three Holy Hierarchs (Greece)

January 31- Inspire Art & Love day

Who is going to join us?

 

It’s (not) so hard to say goodbye to 2017

I am positive that today you are going to read or see about 50 or so posts about moving on from 2017 and what the new year will bring.  I am not one for resolutions but I am one for setting tangible, realistic goals.  I love the idea of a new year, a fresh start, a new story to write.  If I had to look back and reflect on the past few years I could sum up the years up each in a few words.

2014-Discovery

2015-Mistakes

2016-Prosperity

2017-Perspective

For 2018, I hope our word will be growth. As a business owner I know that setting goals that you can touch are the most effective and meaningful way to accomplish what you set out to. So here they are, on paper for the world to see.

  • Reduce our waste and our carbon footprint.  This means no more paper towels, limited paper products, reusable cups for my Starbucks runs.  We are going to purchase more stainless steel and glass and get rid of the plastic and toxic items in our home.  I need to teach my kids more about our world and how much we impact it.
  • Get Healthy in body, mind and soul.  The big kids and I have mom and child journals.  There is a “Mom & Daughter” book and a “Mom and Son” book.  These kids grow up so fast. These journals are going to help us connect on a higher level.
  • Write more.
  • Rely more on essential oils and their amazing healing properties.  This brand has been incredible and we LOVE using them.
  • Meal Plan-We need to live more frugally. I am going to commit to meal planning and commit to meatless Monday’s using this great vegan cookbook by Thug Kitchen.  I will be posting our meals on our “What’s for Dinner” page, so stay tuned!
  • The kids and I are going to read at LEAST 3 chapter books a month. That is 36 books.  If you are interested, they are listed under books we love, and we will provide a review when they are done.  Much of our learning is done through living books.

What are your goals for 2018?  What will you accomplish to make you better in body, mind and soul. Here’s to saying goodbye to the good, but old and welcoming a new year of growth and prosperity. Here’s to 2018.  Cheers!

Car theft and lessons learned

A few days before Christmas we woke up to find that someone had taken my van from my driveway, as a Christmas present to themselves. I spent the first 30 minutes staring at the wall, in disbelief. Seriously? My HOA bubble was burst.  I grew up in an inner city, so I know that these things do happen, but REALLY?  We went through the motions after I could comprehend enough to take care of what I needed to and got the car back late last night.  Children had stolen my car. They had done it before, have been a nuisance to the cops.

I picked up my car from the sketchiest towing company I have ever been to.  Perhaps suburbia is just rubbing off on me. It was all just very uncomfortable.  My van is in decent condition.  The items that were in there that I was worried about have been returned with the exception of Noah’s new chucks and my coveted blue yeti cup.   They did leave cigarette butts, the inside of a cigar, trash, and a box of chips ahoy! At least I know what snacks they like when I visit them in prison.

I cried yesterday. For the first time since my car was stolen and it was a messy, blubbery, crying mess. It was a real ugly cry, but this morning I feel like I have learned a lot.

5 things I learned from having my car stolen:

  1. Strength is harbored until you need it. Even though I am a homeschool mom, a blogger and a dual business owner I underestimated my ability to manage chaos and mayhem. I really was able to tackle and manage this problem.
  2. Good friends are like gold.  From a text message of remorse, a bottle of wine on my table without me requesting, neighbors offering their car, daily check ups to see what I need, and being there to help me laugh through it-you find out who your friends are and my friends are better than gold.
  3. You cannot mess with my kids.  My (almost brand new) car was stolen from my driveway and that made me mad.  What made me loose sleep, and want vengeance was the fact that my children’s stuff was in there. Some items that were irreplaceable, and they didn’t care.  When I found out my car was found, I just wanted my kids stuff to be in there.  Thankfully, most of it was.
  4. I have a heart for kids that need it. These kids are broken.  They are lost.  They need someone, something that will help them be better. They act this way because they are allowed to.  If they go to jail, I am probably going to visit them (law abiding) and love them through this.
  5. Knowledge is Power. I have never been in a situation where I have been scared to open my door, worried about doors being locked and worried about leaving my home with no one there.  I am now.  I am looking over my own shoulders in my own home.  I’ve been kicked out of my suburbia bubble.  It can happen anywhere.

I know how blessed I am. They took my car. A replaceable item that I did get back.  It’s filthy and I feel violated.  They took my stuff, my hard work, my blood, sweat and tears. They took the first new car I had ever owned and went joy riding.  I am not sure I have ever been more angry, grateful, and empowered to help change these kids all at one time.

Blessings

I had to do dining reservations this morning for a few families that are traveling in June, so I am up early. Typically I’ve been taking advantage of the opportunity to sleep until 8, until little footsteps come creaking into my room, and tiny giggle la abound-telling me that I am not going to believe what Jingles did this morning.

This morning, I have had a few moments of peace. Coffee in hand, publishing to social media, in awe of the Christmas decor and the magic of Christmas. A child in one of my groups that I coach came into my house earlier in the season and said “it looks like Santa’s workshop in here”. My thoughts-EXACTLY what I was going for. Anyways, sitting here in the stillness, the quite, gives me time to reflect on my abundance.

Like most family’s this time of year, it’s been a juggling act of time, finances, responsibilities. I finally finished the last few things that I had to do for the year (yesterday). There hasn’t been a lot of peace. But in the chaos, and in the absence of it, all I can say is WOW!

I’ve had 14 christmases with a man I love! 14. My mom gets to have a safe, comfortable (sometimes annoying) home to live in. I have three kids, that are thriving and all so special. I look at my tree and see everything under there. All the gifts that my children have bought for their friends, that have been sent to us by friends, that we bought for friends for a Christmas party we are hosting and can’t believe how lucky I am. The presents merely represent the enormous presence of friends in our lives and how much we honor and love them. This year, don’t look at your presents as things-see them for what they are.

They are a physical, tangible way to hold someone else’s love for you! Merry Christmas!